I've thought about it

Maybe now is the time to seek out the therapist that is right for you. I prefer psychologists over psychiatrists, since they can't prescribe meds, so they look for better ways that do not require meds & if they think you need meds, they have no shame in sending you to a psychiatrist.

I definitely prefer psychologists. but my mental state isn't that bad right now. I'm just annoyingly divided in mind and spirt. my mind goes one way, but my soul the other.

I have never understood why folks think things need to be bad before they go. If you are having an issue resolving it for yourself, then you go, it helps to have someone on the outside that is not in the middle of it to help you sort it out, even when it is minor. You do not have to go it alone, kinda like the old Footprints in the Sand deal.

I have a few people who can speak truth to me. so I have a therapy of my own, I also am a venter. so pardon my venting

Venting is good, because it lances the wound & people to talk to are good as well, but don't wait for it to become a big issue before you seek counseling, it is easier to fix a crack than it is to rebuild a break.