It's helpful to think about things that have happened, but do not let it define you. If you would've known that the GED wasn't credited, you wouldn't have made such a diligent pursuit of your dreams. Be proud of yourself for believing that you could do it in the first place. I'm very sorry things haven't turned out how you planned. Most of us will not live by that luxury anyways. Keep your head up brother. Better days are to come.