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I don't really remember much of my early childhood. I went to pre school made some friends. Left. A lot of stuff changed in between 2nd and 3rd grade. I qualified for the advanced academics program in my area, and had to change schools. At first I didn't, but my parents were set on it. Looking back on it, it was probably the best thing for me. After switching schools I got glasses, and lost all of the friends I had had previously. During third grade I think a lot of my nerdier side came out, I made new friends who I still keep to this day, and I got adjusted to my new school. In seventh grade I met my favorite teacher of all time, my history teacher, who helped out when I was getting bullied, and offered sound advice. In my region, there's an advanced governors magnet school for science and technology, which you have to take a mathematics and reading test along with an essay to get into. Most of my friends circle was made up of try-hard-ish people, who had been preparing for this test for at least a year. I then decided to take it myself, in case some of my friends got in. I took one practice test to learn the format, and then went on to take the actual test. To my own surprise, all of them didn't get in while I was accepted. I then flip-flopped for several months on whether to accept the invitation or not. I ended up not accepting based on the fact that all of my friends were going to the base high school. Me being a shy person was going to find it very difficult to make new friends, and just as difficult to keep the old ones. So, I started my freshman year of High School, and it was pretty good. Teacher's weren't great, but it was enjoyable. For the past year and a quarter, I've had this crush on a girl who I am friends with. I already had noticed that my best friend has a crush on the same girl. (He's not good at hiding it) He also went to homecoming with her, but she apparently doesn't actually like him back. I actually admitted that I liked her a couple months ago, and I didn't expect anything really. We decided that it was better to be friends, and I was happy (and still am) with it. She was cool about it. I didn't expect my feelings to disappear over night or anything like that, but they won't die. I am now just frustrated and disappointed with myself because of it. She's is never going to change her mind either, because apparently she finds romantic love annoying, and if anyone actually believes that it is going to be her. I know there is nothing for me here, but I can't let go. I sort of feel like banging my head against a wall every time I think of her. If you have any advice that will solve this that does not involve potential brain damage, please tell me.

I know its tough but you can either keep hoping she'll change her mind one day, which I honestly wouldn't recommend as its just gonna drive you insane, or just simply let go and accept that she isn't gonna change her mind. Its not easy, I know but it'll get better eventually. Just enjoy your time with her as friends and try to focus on other things. Eventually you'll meet someone else. Its like they say... Love finds you when you expect it the least :)

Thanks. I know. I just wish there was a way to let go faster because no matter how much I try to get over her I feel like it's not making a difference. I just wish there was a way that didn't involve so much time. I am definitely enjoying my friendship with her, and I'm doing my best to bury my feelings.

As silly as these things will sound, they do work. 1) You gotta face the fact that she doesn't want a relationship. A little note on your mirror as a reminder will help over time. It'll hurt at first but the feeling will fade. 2) Every time you think about her or get butterflies when she's near, tell yourself: I have no feelings for you. Same as with the note, it'll hurt at first but eventually that feeling will fade. 3) Meet new people and keep yourself busy. If you catch yourself thinking about her and the previous option is working, do something that'll keep your mind off of her. :)

Thanks. I'll keep that in mind. It'll be what's best for the both of us. If there's one thing I know is true, it's that the last thing I want to happen is for my feelings to get in the way of our friendship. :)

No problem :) Awe, I hope it won't. But good luck!(:

I've still got a lot of time. Thanks again for everything. It was really helpful.