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《天命2》

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由ShadowheartMC編輯: 6/20/2022 5:50:17 AM
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Grimoire Card: Shadow

Explanation, if you missed it! : https://www.bungie.net/en/Forum/Post/256751222/0/0 [spoiler]Thank you guys so much for all the responses and support, and here, as requested, is page one, Shadow’s grimoire card that I wrote over 3 years ago :) ugh I can’t believe how far I’ve come since then, and I hate my writing from this long ago... just uh, ignore how bad it is and focus on the story, alright? [/spoiler] [i] "Bug hugger."[/i] It's funny, I guess that is kinda accurate either way you look at it. Listen, when I was a kid, back when I was human, I always liked bugs. I'd show them to the other kids and... Well let's just say I didn't have many friends.      Thing is, even when I got older I'd still go out of my way to make sure I didn't step on some spider or whatever. I guess it was even weirder now that I was an adult. I didn't mind though. That is, until the fallen. And until people referred to them as bugs. I hated them, the fallen. It wasn't fair, what they were doing. But you gotta learn sooner or later, nothing's very fair.      Waking up to a world taken over by fallen was infuriating. I had no problem killing them. I took joy and pride in defending my home.      But you know what was even more unfair? Not finding out the whole story till I'd been revived for a long while. Not knowing the traveler left them. If other guardians hadn't pushed the idea of them being evil, I probably would have stood on a middle ground. Tried to find a way to make peace. To make things work... Like someone else I know.      You know, after that, after the Reef opened to guardians, I just kept learning more information that made me angry. Angry at the traveler, and angry at people. But I was a loyal guardian. I couldn't let down Zavala, Ikora, and especially Cayde. He was like the only family I ever had. But... There was this friend I made. In the Reef. He was a fallen. Or, as he explained to me, Eliksni.      A lot of guardians didn't feel comfortable with Variks. Since he was from a race who had killed so many of us. But Variks was different. Not that all eliksni were bad. But he was something else. He was really intelligent. He caught my attention.      So it started all over again. Except this time, I actually got a name pinned on me for it other than weirdo. Other guardians, well they sort of started noticing how much time I spent at the Reef. Half of them believed me when I said I felt at home there. I am an awoken, after all. Half of them did not. Half of them were smarter than that. I guess I spent a lot of time in the prison.      You know, it's funny. I didn't even know all too much about him yet. But I knew enough to know how much I hated Skolas. I was more than happy to capture him. It was my pleasure. A reward in itself.      The Queen, she ordered me not to kill him. Now that... That just may be the hardest thing I've ever done. I've never been so angry at anyone.      I knew I should try to hide it. You can only hide feelings for so long before people start to notice. And they did. And so I was a bug hugger. A betrayer of sorts. But it's not like I didn't still kill fallen. Not like I didn't still protect my city. I hadn't abandoned anyone. I never would have joined some random group of fallen bent on killing all humanity. I just saw both sides. Was that so wrong?      I was glad Variks told me stories that were not my own. Glad to hear the other side of things. When I captured Skolas, Variks seemed pretty happy with me. And you know, I'd never felt so accomplished since then. Maybe it was because the vanguard were so... stoic. Variks had a habit of making you feel good, making you feel like you made a difference. I knew I wasn't as strong as other guardians. But he made me feel like I was. I guess that's why I enjoyed his prison so much. Impressing him was always first on my list. And I guess that's why they should be disappointed. Cayde, and the others. I guess that's why they dont trust me as much anymore. Even after everything I've done to help them and our city. You can't get too close to a fallen.      Part of me wondered if this was, you know, "illegal." There was always that worry, that urgency to keep things quiet. I suppose my fierce defense of him gave me away. If anyone had a problem with Variks, they had to go through me. Why? He was my friend. Someone very, very special to me. Why couldn't they see what I saw? Someone with more bravery than any guardian. He did what he knew to be right with only one life to lose. He didn't have a ghost to bring him back. He paid a price I bet you no guardian would be willing to pay and he did it alone. What did he get for it? Sure, he had a place to [i]call[/i] home. But is it really a home when the people around you don't trust you and still accuse you of being a killer and a lover of mindless violence?      After Skolas, I wanted to get closer to him. Sometimes... I couldnt take my eyes off him. Like he was some foreign, precious thing. And he was. Something incredibly rare and important. Something I would do anything to protect.      If Zavala knew, he didn't say anything. He probably didnt want to ask. Didn't want to hear the answer. I think Ikora knew. She looked at me like she pitied me. Cayde knew, I think. And maybe would have even supported me. But instead, he just kept quiet. Perhaps a greater gift. I wanted the vanguard proud of me. I wanted my city proud of me. But like I said. Its never fair.      Eventually I had to start admitting some things to myself. And there were a lot of times I wanted to say something. Anything. I thought up plans, but always scrapped them last minute. Everywhere else, I felt brave. I was a guardian. I felt like I could do anything. But not with Variks. I was a coward. I was a fool. I could hardly think at all. So I settled for quiet contentment. Smiles and glances I hope he understood.      There were some nights we spent together. Usually with other guardians. Sometimes I'd wait them out just to be alone with him. And those moments just talking with him. Those were the best moments of my life. Hope I didnt freak him out, now that I think about it. I stared a lot, I guess. Part of me thinks he might have caught on. He had this habit of touching me, but just barely, like he knew he would get a reaction out of me.      There was one night, where I was surprised he let me sit so close to him. Although, he never seemed to mind me around. In fact, there were times he requested to see me himself. And you know, that night, I could have said something. But I knew he was someone who deserved only the best. I didn't think that was me.      I didn't care about other guardians comparing him to a dreg. To me, he was perfect the way he was. Two arms or four, he was still the most beautiful person I'd ever layed eyes on. And maybe that's why I had trouble saying anything. Those eyes, blue and glowing and [i]traveler damnit[/i], like ice and like fire, like a lake reflecting the sky. Like someone poured gasoline in my lungs and threw in a match. I should have said something.      I settled for resting my hand on his and leaning against him just a little.      So a bug hugger I was. And maybe I was fine with that. If I carried it over into this life too, maybe I was supposed to be this way. But I still wonder what they would say if I told them. Maybe even just Cayde. That one of their guardians had fallen completely and hopelessly in love with a fallen. How disapointed would he be? Would I be kicked out? My ghost taken? Could they stop me from being a guardian? But then, I think, I've reached a point where I wouldn't really care anymore. Variks is someone I can't lose. Someone I wouldn't give up for the world. Someone I would die for. That's what you do for people you love, right? Yeah. They wouldn't like that.     Cuz like I said... Nothings fair.

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  • So, a Guardian and Variiks had their "Brokeback Mountain", moment in secret? If I had to guess, the Guardian was Saint-14. It only makes sense why he's always distant and mostly spends times feeding pigeons and talking about children.

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