“My solitude doesn’t depend on the presence or absence of people; on the contrary, I hate who steals my solitude without, in exchange, offering me true company.”
- Friedrich Nietzsche
What do you mean alone? If you mean alone romantically than my answer is yes. But if you just mean lonely than my answer would be no. I have a Watson. They may be rare but I suggest everyone gets one.
I think that every day. Literally everyone I look at I am not even sexually attracted to. Girls? Nope. Guys? Nah. Animals? -blam!- no.
I wonder what kind of condition that could be called
Talked to a girl last year at my job that I was interested in. The first time we talked we immediately clicked and for once I thought I finally had a chance with a girl. Every time I'd talk to her, her face would always get red and it always felt like an eternity would go by when we'd talk. We had such good chemistry and she'd always wave and say hi to me whenever she'd see me. Asked for her number one day and that's when she told me she had a boyfriend. I was disappointed but nevertheless I moved on. Still stayed her friend though and we'll message each other every blue moon on snapchat. Out of all the other girls I mention below, this girl is the one I miss talking and seeing the most.(She got fired)
Couple months later I started messaging a girl I had a crush on in high school. Things were going good but she was always busy with school and work as was I so we never got to hang out. We still messaged each other after that but she started to stop messaging me entirely(not even opening my texts until days later)and I got the message so I stopped trying to engage a conversation.
Some time later I tried again with another girl. Things were going well actually as she would call me on her lunch break at work, send selfies to me, etc. cute shit like that. She had the time to hang out with me so I invited her out to go eat. This was the first time in my life that I've ever taken a girl out so I was super nervous but excited at the same time. We had a good time and we kept messaging each other after that about hanging out again and stuff. Then one day she stopped messaging me entirely so I looked into it. Her instagram profile's bio had initials in it of her ex boyfriend on it. I deleted her number and everything after I saw that.
I eventually tried again with another girl. This girl talked to me and sent me stuff no other girl I mentioned above did. She'd send me selfies and videos all the time and I couldn't believe a girl this attractive would send stuff and talk to me like that. We both had tough schedules but one day we both had a day off and I had asked her to hang out. She had to take her daughter to the doctor and I was perfectly fine with that, no biggie, a mother has to take care of her child. She said that she wanted to hang out another day which I was on board with right away. That day came and I had asked her if she was busy. Told me that she was busy and couldn't make it but later that night on her snapchat story, she was at somebody's house with a bunch of other people and she was with another guy. I never messaged her again after I saw that.
I guess trying to get into relationships just isn't my thing and lately I've grown to accept it.
Yeah, I get that. I’ve been feeling that way as of late too, I haven’t really found anyone to that I’d be willing to go out on a limb for and I’m cool with it that way because I need to work on myself more before I’m ready for a relationship.