Hello.
I am dealing with major Depression.
I've gotten to the point where I can't even convince myself to go to a therapist or a doctor because I fear they will make my situation worse.
I feel guilty when I recieve help.
And what makes it worse is that, I'm a high-end introvert, so I can't even talk to others face to face about it.
I'm literally cutting myself, to ease Depression, relieve Anxiety and Stress, but it makes me more Paranoid.
I don't know what to do.
So that begs the question:
What do I do?
[i]Please help me.[/i]
If you don't want help then u won't get it, there's your answer.
You don't want to get better, u just want attention, i know this because i'm in the same situation.
You're crying out for help in the easiest way possible but won't make any real progress towards help because it's too hard, because having others pity you makes you feel slightly better, because it's easier than actually getting up and getting help.
You'll never get better trying to go the easy route, you'll never feel better trying to escape the internal pain with physical pain. You're just digging a deeper hole.
Go out and talk to someone, before it's too late.