I know, but I love him. Things were actually going really good for about a week, like it was perfect and he was so nice. Now he's back to calling me a bitch and telling me to go -blam!- myself, and so I'm really upset and not sure how to handle things, and he saw how upset I was so he's being nice and calling me Cupcake again but I can't just go back to pretending I'm happy. I'm so worn out. :(