Dude, at least you went for it. Sure, it ended shitty. But hell, you tried what most guys wouldn't even have the nads to do. You should have respect for yourself for doing that, and you got respect for me. And man, my experience from being shot down A LOT has left me time to realize that, you have a whole life ahead of you, and as much you want someone special like that for anything, it might take some waiting. Anyway, don't let this shit get you down. :)