*floof is shitty as usual* *goes to #density because they can't possibly be even more retarded* *is wrong* *kills self* I missed you guys sooooooooooooooooooooo much but the bullshit amount of homework from my school and the fact that Jemal couldn't bail me out is pissing me off The system makes me extremely paranoid Also [url=http://media.giphy.com/media/asE22tR6OsVVe/giphy.gif]>tfw someone asks you to sign a photo release[/url] I was volunteering and they had a drone taking pictures! :O Ch33f said you guys were gay as usual so that's comforting [url=http://i.imgur.com/t75KbfY.gif]>mfw I checked in on TEH PM PARTAY TRAIN[/url] What the fu­ck have you guys been doing in there?? I'm glad you guys are still retards because real life is becoming such an inconvenience It all seems so unreal man All my friends are becoming...not my friends And there's something fishy about the teachers there.... I find myself getting into more self destruction thought patterns and just a more pure hatred of those around me Don't worry Suicide ain't my style I also had an amazing dream... Amazing is not the right adjective though... It was....quite an experience So, I'm don't remember the details but I remember the feeling There I was In some post apocalyptic world A place not fit for human life I was in a destroyed building Repeated wrecked structures as far as the eye can see It was surprisingly calm There was a small girl with me My daughter?? I don't know but I felt a very special connection with her We were running... Now I don't know if this was after or before my trip to space but we were at a seaside town Similar to Flapjack's world People were moping around We were trying to stop something... All the sudden, all hell breaks loose Giant objects started falling from the sky at high velocity Although I didn't see them, I know that they were robots [?] similar to the one from The Incredibles I was fine but the girl was injured They captured us and held us in cinderblock cells There was a jailbreak or a rescue attempt but I found myself running I was in the same place as the beginning of my dream The girl was rescued by the others She was severely injured She was encased in a metal pod enveloped in a transparent glowing greenish goo Her eyes were closed The goo was providing a stable environment where she would be able to survive We was shoved in a small pod with only enough space for her pod and other rod like containers; the contents of which I didn't know We were launched into space with only a small circular porthole to look through inside the padded pod We were trying to find something to save her This is what I remembered the most and where I felt the most I felt...isolation? Emptiness? I don't know but I didn't mind it I remember looking out the porthole at a light source from the right and a planet [?] to the left It was all redish rust colored I remember my bladder was full But there was nowhere to relieve myself It was literally just a padded pod No controls or anything except for the things I described I looked to her pod I wanted to open it and go inside so I could survive too but I knew she would die I wanted it so badly but a part of me that was still "human" stopped The next part is really fuzzy We either made it to the sea town I was describing or something else happened All I remember was how much I loved her Not romantic love but pure love Only time I ever felt this way before was the time I had the Blue Haired Girl dream But this post has gone on long enough Ask me about it if you want to know Holy shit I just blogged I'm sorry If you made it through that, I love you [spoiler]tl;dr I had a dream Desticles are retarded Some random problems as a result of my developing pre frontal cortex[/spoiler] [spoiler]The snow glows white on the mountain tonight Not a footprint to be seen A kingdom of isolation, And it looks like I'm the queen. The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside Couldn't keep it in, heaven knows I tried! Don't let them in, don't let them see Be the good girl you always have to be Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know Well, now they know! Let it go, let it go Can't hold it back anymore Let it go, let it go Turn away and slam the door! I don't care What they're going to say Let the storm rage on, The cold never bothered me anyway! It's funny how some distance Makes everything seem small And the fears that once controlled me Can't get to me at all! It's time to see what I can do To test the limits and break through No right, no wrong, no rules for me I'm free! Let it go, let it go I am one with the wind and sky Let it go, let it go You'll never see me cry! Here I stand And here I'll stay Let the storm rage on! My power flurries through the air into the ground My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast I'm never going back, The past is in the past! Let it go, let it go And I'll rise like the break of dawn Let it go, let it go That perfect girl is gone! Here I stand In the light of day Let the storm rage on, The cold never bothered me anyway![/spoiler]