I won’t ever assume that I know exactly what you’re feelings are or what your going through, but a lot of what you said struck me as having some similarities to my own experiences. If you ever want to chat send me a PM anytime. It’s difficult when you’ve been through things that feel as if people couldn’t ever understand. Situations so unique to you, or traumatic, maybe it’s something not spawned from an event or trauma, but it’s a mental or emotional state that you talk about. Like depression or anxiety and people say “I know exactly what you mean! Just go do something that makes you happy!” Yeah they are trying to be helpful and positive. But it feels like they don’t really know you for who you really are. And after being through situations or having emotional and mental health conditions that make you feel separated from what’s “normal” or can feel like the one thing you most want in life is just to be able to know who you really are, to communicate that truthfully, and then to be understood for that. And when that kind of truth is expressed, I personally want a world where we aren’t “accepted” for it, because “accepting” is what you do when you get a job offer that pays a little less than what you want. It’s less than ideal but you “accept” it. I want a world where we recognize that uninhibited expression, the truth without fear, and cherish each other for it. So as cheesy as it sounds, and as lame as this will probably come across, I think that you posting about yourself on such an open and honest way is genuinely beautiful, and I hope you can continue to do so without fear.