Just a heads up this is one of the most depressing post I’ll probably ever make and I’m sure it hits home for some of you. If you don’t want to be sad I suggest just clicking back and moving along. I don’t blame you if you do. To explain what’s going on here’s a little backstory. During the summer before ninth grade when I was 14 my mothers boyfriend and I got in a fight. It led to a domestic disturbance and I had to call the police that night. I had decided the next morning I’d go stay with my father who wasn’t too far away. When I went to tell my mother I’m leaving for a few days I saw her boyfriend back inside the house. A couple days passed and my brother who was already moving out told me I needed to grab my stuff out of the apartment because my mother and her boyfriend left for good. I didn’t find this out for along time but turns out he had a warrant out for his arrest that the officers didn’t notice that original night. I moved in with my dad and due to a lot of stress I dropped out around late winter in my freshman year. I tried to get my GED but I failed the final test out of four by a single point. I’d go back and take it now but I’ve been way to stressed out and I see myself passing. My dad told me last year that I had until my birthday in October 2019 to find a job and my goal was to do YouTube and twitch because at the time that was my best option. I figured if I could make a couple hundred dollars after a few months it’d be a reliable option and it would’ve been. Sadly in January I ran out of Xbox live gold and for whatever reason my father couldn’t stop our cable company from racking up an overdue bill which was over $500 that I had no control over so I lost my WiFi. I haven’t been able to do anything since. Around this time last month I asked my father if we’d get our WiFi back anytime soon He said it’d be around this time. When I asked him today he told me “I have $350 left to pay before the WiFi is back on” Then we started arguing over it and it ended with me realizing I don’t want to live with him anymore. I’ve had an offer from a long time friend in the past about moving in with him cause he knew my father was rough on me. The problem is he isn’t in the same state. For awhile today I was just thinking of walking out tomorrow morning and seeing where the wind takes me but I took a chill pill and I told my father that I’m going to see if my friend will let me move in with him. If my friend doesn’t have that option anymore then I might be forced to live in a motel in Oklahoma. “Why Oklahoma” well I have a girlfriend some of you might know her as Artemis because she’s another user from offtopic. She lives in Oklahoma and we’ve been together since February. I’m not sure she’d be ready to move in together hence why I’m considering a motel room. If I do move I’d most likely finish my GED and get a license. From there I can look at whatever job opportunities are available and hopefully land something I’m capable of doing. Artemis has a life of her own and I don’t wanna hold her back from finishing things like college and such. She’s really been helping me through a lot of my problems whilst dealing with some herself that I’m just not great at helping her with. I’m not the best guy in the world and I make a lot of mistakes. So aside from moving in with my friend or possibly finding a cheap play to stay in Oklahoma I don’t really have any other options. I wasn’t making this post to ask for any sort of help rather just some wholesome words. It’s been a rough couple of months for me I’ve had horrific nightmares I’ve dealt with losing many friends and now I’m basically going to be on my own in less than a month if I don’t find a solution fast. I just wanna say thank you for giving me a place where I could be who I wanted to be and say what I needed to say. Thank you to the people who took the time to get to know me and build little friendships with me. It’s been an uphill battle all my life and I don’t know what I would’ve done over these last few years without Bungie Destiny and Offtopic. I probably wouldn’t have got into YouTube and twitch had I not enjoyed destiny so much because that’s what led me to streaming Rainbow Six Siege. All I’m saying is thank you for making things better than they would’ve been had I not came to this site. [spoiler]so my thoughts after reading some replies. I’m sorry guys but whilst you all offer great advice that’s mainly for your average person. Yes I could go back and finish my GED and look into getting a job but some of you are missing a point. That’s not who I want to be. I enjoy what I have going on and to correct some misinformation no I’m not just a twitch streamer I do YouTube as well which is so much more reliable compared to twitch. Sure not everyone gets lucky and I agree it’ll take a lot for it to pay off and maybe I can’t afford that risk right now but it’s really the best opportunity I have. I don’t want to work for a company where I work on someone else’s clock because they’re my boss. I don’t want or need a boss telling me what to do. I’d rather much work as myself. A lot of people say these two platforms aren’t successful. To anyone who’s saying that you do realize most creators can probably make $30,000 a month I’ve seen channels under a million pulling numbers higher than that. Also consider this YouTube is a form of entertainment so is twitch. Imagine if someone came up to you and said “marvel films are unsuccessful” or your favorite music artist is “throwing money away for nothing” that’s what you’re saying when you say “YouTube and twitch aren’t successful” YouTube is basically the reddit of the entertainment world. You wanna listen to music or watch trailers on upcoming movies? You wanna watch sports games or fashion shows? You wanna watch one Swedish boy take on a cooperate entity known as T-Series? Well guess what YouTube has all that and more. Twitch on the other hand is mainly focused on games as entertainment which is still successful. I’ve been planning to do this for years now and I’m not going to just sit back and let some of you say this stuff without giving you some information that’s important. Anyways if anything else comes up I’ll let you know. Currently my best offer is to possibly move in with my buddy from Indiana who’s willing to support me as long as I’m trying to do something in life. That’s the kinda help I expected not the help I received on this post. Y’all need to remember I’m not your average dude. My life’s a mess and I just wanna do what I understand in life. For me that’s making content. I’m not angry about this I just don’t think most of you understand my situation. Thank you though for trying to help and wishing me well. 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