You're probably the first person on the forums for a perma ban that admitted to having a cheat engine installed, sure it wasn't even for D2 at all...it's just nice to see someone understand how they messed up. As for you personally, I would try some other games. Stuff like Monster Hunter, Borderlands, Halo MCC for PC soon. You may find some new love. If none of those really satisfy you...could always make a new Steam account and run a New Light save (obviously double checking active software in the background). Sure it's gonna be rough starting over, but it's better than never playing your saving grace ever again, right?