It’s not like you’re getting sh.. drunk wasted and drink every night I don’t really see the problem.
I get like that too from time to time (just wine really).
As long as you know your boundaries and keep it at 1 glass, maybe two a night, I wouldn’t worry too much about it.
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Well the only problem is... when I drink I binge drink... and everytime I tell myself I’m going to take it slow and just get a buzz but then when I get a buzz I’m like -blam!- it lol
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[quote]Well the only problem is... when I drink I binge drink... and everytime I tell myself I’m going to take it slow and just get a buzz but then when I get a buzz I’m like -blam!- it lol[/quote] Yeah, my blind butt read it as you only have 1, 2, Maybe 3. LOL. But with that “new” information then, it might become a problem though. If you don’t want to get to that “I’m turning into an alcoholic” point.. Just be strict and tougher on yourself. Set some days for yourself where you can drink and deny yourself a drink the other days. It’s hard, trust me I’ve been there all the way a while ago, and it’s really -blam!-ing shit (excuse my French) when you do realise you either are an alcoholic or are only two shots away from being one. If you can cut on it now, please do it and don’t wait for it until you’re already there.
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Thank you for the advice.. my mind is to weak though... it’s almost like I have voices in my head that don’t leave me alone.(not really but you know what I mean) and I’m always telling myself I’m gonna cut back after this time... but it becomes an endless loop... I actually enjoy life... I enjoy art and nature.. but I’m plagued with physical problems that drive me crazy that I just keeped bottled up... I don’t wanna see a therapist or anything like that cause I don’t wanna end up like my mom(I love her but she’s on drugs that make her kinda crazy).... idk why I’m telling you all this lol thank you...
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[quote]Thank you for the advice.. my mind is to weak though... it’s almost like I have voices in my head that don’t leave me alone.(not really but you know what I mean) and I’m always telling myself I’m gonna cut back after this time... but it becomes an endless loop... I actually enjoy life... I enjoy art and nature.. but I’m plagued with physical problems that drive me crazy that I just keeped bottled up... I don’t wanna see a therapist or anything like that cause I don’t wanna end up like my mom(I love her but she’s on drugs that make her kinda crazy).... idk why I’m telling you all this lol thank you...[/quote] Oh, how familiar that all sounds. I know what you mean with the voices, no worries. They were here too. And I understand you feel like your mind is weak but it’s really as weak as you let it. They will keep telling you to have some and then some more for a while but you just have to give it your all to fight it. I know that’s your typical advice anyone will give you but it really is just that. [spoiler]I started drinking because mentally i was just... broken, I guess. Was battling depression, Borderline... Drinking made me forget about a lot of things. Started with a glass every now and then... Than one every night... Than a few more because why the hell not?... than it just became a few more every night because it made me feel better. But that’s just really what you keep telling yourself. I have lost and destroyed sooooo many friendships because of it. And I was so deep down it I couldn’t even realise it was all my fault. All I did was blame them for the fights we all had... For the hurt I had... Everything was always their fault and never mine. That’s what it does to you. So I’m really out here asking you to not let it get that far for yourself. Those are friendships I will never get back and they were the best ones I’ve had. If you can find the strength in yourself to net give in to the voices, do it. When it gets hard, just focus on something else and ignore it. It’s hard but eventually you’ll find it easier and easier.[/spoiler]
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Edited by FishBlues: 1/27/2018 5:49:59 AMIt’s the same for me but with like girls I dated... we always broke up because of my drinking... it feels like I’m just realizing this for some reason lol... but yeah... I know what you mean with the friendship thing... I really do wanna change... it just feels like it’s consuming me and I’m trapped... I do get depressed and often it’s when I get drunk... so why do I drink? No idea.. I guess it’s in my DNA? Idk how it works but I wanna fight it... I just don’t know how to start lol
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I think you, you as in just a generalisation, drink because of what it does to you. It’s not so much the alcohol itself you get addicted to (for some people it really is just that) but the feeling it gives you. Or at least that was the case here. Didn’t drink anymore because I enjoyed the drink itself, but because I enjoyed not feeling absolutely miserable and I enjoyed not feeling like a scared and insecure little girl. But again, you just make yourself believe that you truly are happy when you drink. But where to begin... That’s something you need to decide for yourself. You really have two choices; or you find professional help or you help yourself.. Figure out why exactly you drink or what makes you drink and try to find a solution for that/those problem(s). And of course, trust in your willpower and determination to say no to the bottles. . [spoiler]But if you ever want to talk or something, PM is open :)[/spoiler]