I don't fit into any social norms either. I find myself bouncing between the empty spaces of each group's sphere of influence, and there's only one sort that I've gotten the closest to calling 'home'. But that's just not me. I've been too used to performing solo pieces in life in terms of identifying my character.
My group is the people out there like me, always moving but with no stable 'faction' to settle upon. There aren't a lot of us, if anyone can relate, and we're all spread out, distant from another.
In terms of social encounters, I don't make lots of eye contact, and I have trouble starting even basic communication. Most of that is just me, I suppose. But when someone gets me into a topic I can go on about, like this one for example, I pounce on the opportunity. It's difficult stuff, trust me.
I used to take meds for the depression and anxiety, but they made things worse, so I've just done my best over the years with my therapist to overcome these things using intellect and adaptive skills. I'm a lot better in social interactions now than I was, but even today I feel alienated constantly at times.
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[quote]I don't fit into any social norms either. I find myself bouncing between the empty spaces of each group's sphere of influence, and there's only one sort that I've gotten the closest to calling 'home'. But that's just not me. I've been too used to performing solo pieces in life in terms of identifying my character. My group is the people out there like me, always moving but with no stable 'faction' to settle upon. There aren't a lot of us, if anyone can relate, and we're all spread out, distant from another. In terms of social encounters, I don't make lots of eye contact, and I have trouble starting even basic communication. Most of that is just me, I suppose. But when someone gets me into a topic I can go on about, like this one for example, I pounce on the opportunity. It's difficult stuff, trust me. I used to take meds for the depression and anxiety, but they made things worse, so I've just done my best over the years with my therapist to overcome these things using intellect and adaptive skills. I'm a lot better in social interactions now than I was, but even today I feel alienated constantly at times.[/quote]