Self gratification provides moments of exhilaration unlike anything you're likely to get any other way. But those moments are fleeting and hollow in the long term. Being the "good guy" is hard. Damn hard most of the time and often comes with more pain than you would get being the "bad guy". But at the end of the day you can look yourself in the mirror without an ounce of shame.
How much all that matters to you is for you to decide.
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Everything matters to me. I'm interested in exploring and experiencing everything. However if I want to experience these bad things that I haven't explored yet then I have to give up all of the good things that I already have.
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Then you have a very important decision to make.