I just love spending time on Destiny, and these forums. Laughing at junk and the occasional appearance of "Butthurt". I've been spending more and more time trying to not think or feel reality. Is it that I want to run from my problems? Or is this game so great... its Captivating? Heheh, I'll say its both. Things didn't workout too well between my babies mother and myself. I don't get to see my son every night and get to give him a kiss on the forehead before he sleeps. He turned one recently and man, he's getting big. My dreams, my future, my son. I'm making this post just to get a bit of what's in my mind out. Wow, I'm crying as I write this. Don't even know where to start. I lost all that was dear to me throughout the years. I feel lonely. I feel worthless. I know, trust me I know. Look life in the eyes and just own it. Do it for your son! You have to believe in yourself! I've heard it all before. I love my son more than anything in the world. But I threw in the towel for life. I'd rather not have. But I can't control myself. When I play Destiny, I feel like a beast. I feel wanted. I feel like people need me. So I rush to the highest levels and get the best gear so I can help others because hearing "thank you" or, "want to be friends? " means the world to me. My dreams, were to be a professional fighter, a performer, an awesome father, and a game developer. My passion was mostly into fighting. But, it's all gone now. Yes, I can get it all back... But, heheh... No one understands me... you guys can let this thread die if you stopped by. I had no pen and paper handy so just wrote my thoughts here. But if you do relate... I hope you figure out how to get out of your situation cause I don't know how I'm making it... I'm a mess man... Ez guys Edit: Guys... Never expected this from the Destiny community truthfully. Tonight has been one of the hardest nights of my life. And I want to thank everyone sincerely from the bottom of my heart for their helpful responses. This post was to vent. It got a couple of replies and I realized, I needed positive interactions as opposed to another all nighter on destiny. So I tried replying to as much posts as I can. There are some awesome people out there and I am going to give life a real big fight with the energy you guys have given me. I hope I have the power of the community on my back because I feel paralyzed when I'm alone. Thanks again, I'm getting back up, and here's for my boy. Thank you all My lil man heheh http://imgur.com/CCUHjbE