My father almost and I guess did have a heart attack, and we might have almost lost him. Because of his heart problems he has become increasingly angry at random times, my mental state is then right now. I'm the type of person to hide away my problems and just go through the storm. I don't have any irl friends to bring this to at all not much family either. This has been happening for years, and I can't take much more of this. Please don't think of me any different, this is my escape and I love the fun and support y'all give people. People who disagree with prayer please skip the post of "I'll keep you in my thoughts but prayer doesn't work". I'm sorry to bring this to y'all it's just I feel alone and because of the health state in my family it's hard to bring it to them as well. I saw what is going on with dmg and I know fully well what you are experiencing, and I'm deeply sorry for that. I hope and pray you get well. I have some info for stuff to help your condition if you wish, stuff that might have saved my father's life tonight. This is the same stuff that made me drop out of the role play Speaker, I really did want to, but I just can't express the creativity and joy it takes to role play like that. I've had really bad thoughts about my own life to be honest, it is selfish and I pity all those who have those dark thoughts about their life, just know that it is never the answer even if it is hard, like Ben. This may sound weird but I love this place and it's people, it's like a second family. Edit: it makes me want to cry seeing all the support you guys give, it's hard to reply to all of this without sounding like a bot repeating over and over, so I give a like, it's good to see some good in the world still!