Because I wouldn't let her give me head. Now i know I'm gonna get some shit for this but, I am legitimately traumatized from an incident when I was younger and she wouldn't stop bugging me about it So since everyone keeps asking about my incident I will just put it in here. A few years ago I was attacked by a pit bull,and he latched on to my dick and ended up almost completely ripping it off. After about 3 minutes of torture I was able to get my self free. Was air lifted to the hospital and had everything repaired. Ever since then I can' be comfortable with someone or something that close. Hopefully this clears things up, I bet 90% of you would be the same way I am if you went through this