This is just a bit of a rant.. I am so dead feeling and frustrated, and angry.. I really want the NL Shadow 107X Scout Rifle.. Since scout rifles are what I use primarily when doing PvE, but you get it as a "random" drop in the crucible. I have been grinding for a couple months, weeks and weeks, and hours spent grinding the crucible to try and get this gun. I have gotten most every other gun to drop, have seen others on my team get it, been killed with it.. and yet it will not drop for me. x.x.. Today I see it drop TWICE in two different lobbies to other people.. I almost threw my controller at my TV out of sheer frustration. This makes me just want to throw destiny out the window, it is so ridiculous.. I do not feel rewarded at all for playing half the time anymore.. I can be doing good, bad, average, and yet it will not drop what I really want..