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Edited by Zevenwulf: 11/8/2015 7:14:11 PM
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A Liar Comes Clean

Before I actually start this I want everyone to know that what I am about to say is a truth that I will regret having hidden from you all and that I am sorry for it. The person you have come to know as Zest is not entirely who I am. It must have been six months ago I started this lie, as part of some stupid joke but before I could understand what it cause I was far too deep. There have been truths, there have been many, I could not stand to be alive if everything I had ever said was a lie. Last Sunday my lies finally hit me in full and I realized what they meant, that I would never be able to face the friends I had made, friends I could have made without lying to them. For a moment I faltered and let the person I was, the person I had been before, finally slip away, I blacked out and lost nearly an hour of my life, when I came to I was parked beside an overpass with one thought fading in my mind. Was I too weak to do it? I do not know, what I do know is that scared me; I tried to act like it did not but it sat there on my shoulder, eating away at me. The reason for this whole thing is because someone found my lie and I let the man I used to be break the chain, yes, [b]man[/b]. That is the lie I told first, that I did not have any balls, that I was a woman, but I am not. I am a man, a twenty year old six foot tall man with brown hair and blue eyes and nobody I could call up to do something fun with. I'm just a sad little man that lied because he didn't want to blend into the backdrop any longer. Maybe it worked, or maybe I just used that idiotic decision to hide and let who I really am finally out into the open, either way I enjoyed the time I spent with you all [i]despite[/i] my lie. I am sorry, please don't doubt that, but I won't ask for your forgiviness, I don't deserve that from the wonderful friends I've made. Though it would be nice if you all would not resort to "knew it" comments, they're beneath you. EDIT: Apparently not...

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  • What gender you are, what sexuality, whether you believe you're a four-hundred foot tall purple platypus-bear with pink horns and silver wings, doesn't matter and has never mattered to me. You're a good person Zest, even if you think you might not be. [spoiler]Not to be insensitive if it's true, but if this is a troll, good job![/spoiler]

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