HOLY SHIT FINALLY. IVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR SUCH A LONG TIME. I cut my ankles and am slowly thinking about suicide. Help me. Please

Great post idea, my post is long sorry about that but its just my story and hope it helps some or gives people a better understanding of depression I suffered from depression eent off to college for a degree I didnt really want but felt pushed towards it, and ended up hating my life and had constant thoughts of just kind of driving my car off the road into a tree or something not die but just take away all the responsibility and choices needed of me. I started smoking too a lot(i always enjoyed it and had fun when I did it previously) where I was high more than sober most of the days and that helped numb it for about a month. Then I stopped going to class and for two weeks straight ( not like I was going often or cared any way) and just try to not think amd kept my mind distracted with tv and video games until I fell asleep from exhaustion. During this time I quit smoking because I started getting anxiety attacks everytime I did so after I stopped it was only like every other day I felt like my heart was going to explode(not saying weed is good or bad just depends on person). I ended calling my mom and just breaking down one day amd she helped me from falling apart I finished out the semster but failed all classes(a waist of thousands of dollars that me feel even worse and worthless). Moved back home where I was lucky enough to have a gf who supported me through this and drove 4 hrs to see often( almost lost her durming this but luckily I didnt:)) and a supportive family (runs in family brother had it too but worse) and did another semester at a community school before taking a year off. I took about a year afterwards until I found myself again but I feel like I think less now trying to avoid my own thoughts and just go with the flow never thinking to hard on one thing. Im better now but it is a tough road and still have dark days. It always helps to share with people ( why I like the thread) and just remember it is an illness and its not your fault you feel this way even though people may have tougher lives than you but are "happier". [spoiler]sorry it was so long just thought id share my story, also im back in school now going toward an associates I chose and okay with[/spoiler]

Yes sometimes I am but then I'm not. Gotta love disease huh (;

Im not depressed more just upset it that my friend types up a girl's name jordan (who i have feelings for) in the urban dictionary and it ends up being disgusting so i tell him dont tell her she's gonna hate me so planning to do it now. :(

Can't get over a girl , need tips to be fully independent from her

*ready's rope* Human kind is a steaming pile of shit. See yall in hell! *jumps off chair*

I'm not depressed so much as inconceivably aggravated.

So I'm not depressed but I am sad because of recent events. So if you get to me make sure there is no one depressed waiting.

I understand the good intentions, but this forum is full of people who don't understand mental illness in the slightest, so this place is a pretty bad place to discuss this.

Just bigots who criticize other religions. I am 11 (this should be a thread of truth) and it really angers me. It could just be my young age that's very sensitive. I used to just try hard, but there are much too many ignorant fools. So I just use circular argument on them, just to anger them.

I need help its just destiny they say it's a great game but I just can't see it. Am I a terrible person?

I don't have depression. Not because I have it easy or anything, but I learned something a while back I would like to share with you all. You don't control anything except yourself. The world will continue to spin out of control no matter how hard you fight it. so don't waist your greatness on something you can't change. You can always change yourself and improve to make yourself better at surviving the chaos. so instead of worrying about the crumbling world, focus on how you can be better. Now think about it for a moment. You are a part of the world, and you can make yourself better, you now have the ability to make a small part of the world better. And maybe can influence others into being like you, thus making more and more of the world better.

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My life has been spiraling out of control for almost 2 years now. I can't seem to get enough of a footing on my own to even have the means of attending a college, which is something I've aspired to do my whole life. Every goal I set, whether it be short or long term, ends up being set back by an outside force. The amount of hopelessness I feel on a daily basis is becoming physically exhausting, I suddenly developed anxiety and my social life is now difficult to maintain. Depression is a real struggle, because even the most simple thing seems undoable. The closest goal, unable to be reached. The lowest standard, unreachable. And yet, somehow...I'm still here. [spoiler]Sigh.[/spoiler]

Not really depressed, but help is appreciated: -Girl I love for three years (dated then broke up after her parents found out) brotherzoned me and is asking me for advice on different guys -Mom (living in foreign country) is having constant fights with Dad. Sometimes won't contact us for a week -Dad and I fight everyday. He gets easily pissed at me at things I don't know since I've never done them yet. He calls me worthless a lot of times even if I do outstandingly in school -Have trouble finding a new home since we have to move soon; house we're staying at is being sold -Every family members expect so much for me and requires me to do a ton of clubs/sports when I'm already doing tons of stuff at school. -So much projects at school; colliding with basketball and regular homework -I have to walk 2 miles everyday from my school to return to my house since I have basketball practice after school. Meaning I have to walk exhausted for 45 minutes. Collides with projects and homework. - Have to attend several school council meeting and ASB fundraisers -Family fallout... I'm really stressed out. Any tips?

Semi. Torn between living in Canada with my gf who I love and going back to Aus to be with family and friends.

I can't seem to keep a guy. They always run away. They tell me the classic line "It's not you, it's me" every time. Do I just pick shitty guys or is it my fault?

I'm in a predicament. I'm 12 btw. Half the other 12 and 13 year olds at my school are already "dating". I personally thinks it's stupid. I feel there are 2 ways I could plan my life. A smart, geeky, gamer kinda alone person. I feel that marriage is not just the key to happiness like so many people think it is. I want to be different and not a normal married terrible wife and 2 kids like most couples. I play a lot of games and I love video games and the communities. But also, as a 12 year old, I have likings for girls and all that sappy stuff. I want to go both ways, but I feel it hard to find someone that likes games as me and is into me and somewhat cute. I'm 12 and I shouldn't be worrying about this, but need to know what I'm doing in my life and I want to be a gamer but natural reflexes make me I don't know, like girls. I'm sorry I'm 12 idk what I'm saying.

I'm depressed. But I've learned how life works. She is the purest form of cruelty, evil, and really just wants you to feel pain. Any type is good with her. You have no idea... [spoiler]and she's still my bby( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)[/spoiler]