Well I know that feeling bro. Honestly? The only way that I get by every day is with my medication. I'm not really happy at all anymore. My depression is so bad that there will never be reconstruction. My medication is the only thing that helps that. If it helps you at all, I just stick to the term [quote]-blam!- the world[/quote] and I try to stick to myself. I have a few good friends that I keep close and my dad. Have people in your life that you know won't -blam!- you. Keep your head up bro. Everything works out in the end :)