Try to shoot the baby out like a canon ball. [spoiler]Boyfriend - I don't have enough information to make a proper assessment on your situation, but based off what I read, he may potentially be distancing himself from you because of the fact that a baby is going to be in your lives, and he's scared of the commitment. Keep in mind all of this is mere speculation, and should not be the foundation for actions. Whatever it may be, make sure that you meet face to face and talk about this, because this is a serious this. No matter how much he chooses to brush you off on this, there is no denying the fact that the future will come, and you have to be prepared. [/spoiler] [spoiler]The baby - I have no place to say what you do with the baby, but know that once the baby is put up for adoption, there is no going back. That baby was born from you, and you created that life. But if you feel you can't take care of that child, so be it.[/spoiler] [spoiler]Happiness - This is a topic that is often reoccurring in life. While many people say it is important to find happiness, I disagree. For you can live without it, but would you want to? Humans can find happiness anywhere and in anything. Why, should we not be happy for the mere fortune of living in a society of food, shelter, medicine, and security? But I digress, like a dear friend once told me; If you want happiness, you must claw your way through the rough to grasp it, even if it's just for a short time. I'm not sure if any of this will actually help at all, but know that if you need someone to talk to, i'm sure everyone here would be willing to help.[/spoiler]