First, I should say that I used to be a bastard, a real nasty, horrible, bullying dickhead sort of character.
I have changed since then and have become a quiet, secluded, socially awkward creep. But, for the last few weeks when I have opened my mouth it's been to put someone down, say a sarcastic remark or start a rumour. Today I made two offensive jokes that killed the mood.
So how do i stop this inner bastard emerging? Or is this all inevitable because I was a bad combination of genes because I was an accident and I can't just be a normal person I have to be a cocky show off prick or an isolated shy creep?
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I have a solution to end your problem. You seem like a pussy anyway, and this should work. Tell your friends about your issue, and that you want to change this behavior, with their help. This is the plan, every time you're a jerk, a friend will either kick you or punch you in the nuts, you tell them to follow through no matter what you say. While it will be painful, you will quickly for an association between extreme pain and being a jerk, and the fact that you are most likely wont enjoy that, you will avoid the pain at all costs.