I am sorry to hear that you are going through such troubling times. If you ever need to talk we are here for you. I don't really know how good antidepressants will work, but please try to quit drinking. It may seem to help you, but it ends up causing nothing but problems. Edit: and we would never get mad at you for not posting. It isn't your duty to cater to us. It's something that you do in your free time. If it is no longer fun for you, than feel free to quit.