November 30th, 2014 I got off of work for the private ambulance company ATI at 9:50pm. I texted my father to see whether or not he was working and if he had recorded The Walking Dead so we can watch it together. 10:20 and I find a parking spot down the block. I get out of my car, grab my things, and start heading for my apartment. I take my time getting in, what's the rush? My dads probably inside playing Age of Empires II like he usually does. I'll find him playing as the Mongols on Deathmatch against a Very Hard AI. Chances are he's already won but he's just converting all of the AI's villagers trying to rack up his population.
I get to the door and place my things down. I untie my boots and leave them by the door. I start to unlock the front door when I start smelling something fowl. "What the hell did he do?" I open the door and the apartment is dark except the light coming from his room bouncing off the white wall. Something's not right. Dad always greats me. I don't even hear the TV on. I drop my things and head for his room.
I found my father laying motionless on the floor of his room. I grab my phone and immediately dial 911 and tell them what happened. The paramedics are on their way. The dispatcher tells me to start doing chest compressions on him, no shit Sherlock thanks, but I already know it's not going to do anything. Rigor mortis and blood pooling were apparent on my fathers body. He was swollen and cold. Everything in my body didn't want to believe how long he might've been laying there. Even though I knew it wasn't going to help I started chest compressions. I was cursing at his body, telling him how much of an idiot he was for probably doing something stupid without me around. As en EMT I did my best to leave my emotions at the door and treat the problem but there was no longer a problem to treat. My father had been dead for a few days now.
The firefighters and paramedics found me doing chest compressions on my father but they all knew what I didn't want to believe. I turned to look at all of them after I finished giving them a quick patient report and that's when I broke.
The last time I spoke to my father was on Thanksgiving, wishing him a happy holiday and him wishing me the same. I was visiting my mother at the time. The hardest thing for me to accept is that my father had died alone and I wasn't there to help him. I cry now as I think about what might've been going through his mind. I will never get to tell him how much I really love him. I will never get to hug him again. I will never wake up at 8am when he comes home from work. The smell that night and what I saw when I found him will forever be in my mind and I hate myself for it. I love you dad.
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Lol my dad [i]and[/i] mom are dead. Beat that
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That's awful. Sorry for your loss.
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How would their be a smell if he wasn't even dead for 24 hours? Hole in story = lies...
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Wish you the best of luck and condolences.
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Edited by VIVALICIOUS: 1/30/2015 5:25:30 PMSay not in sorrow "he is no more" but live in thankfulness that he was.
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Words can't express the deep amount of sorrow I feel for you. I truly am sorry.
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Sorry dude.
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He will be forever remembered in the name of the emperor. But in all seriousness I'm sorry for you're loss, I think we've all lost somebody and it's important to reflect.
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I know the feeling and I'm sorry for your loss
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Can't imagine bro, sorry for your loss pull through and may god bless you and your father
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I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my mother 3 years ago. It took an insane toll on me. I honestly haven't been the same since. Today I lost my family. Not to death but they have put my wife and I out and we now live in our car. I lost my job due to illness and lost my home and had to move in with them until I found something else. I've had countless interviews but no call backs. I live in a small town called Monticello in Mississippi. Not very much to do as far as anything goes much less work. We have no food or honestly any friends to speak of other than random LIVE people I used to game with every so often. She's from TX originally so getting to her family would be to drive 13 hours or so with no money which makes that impossible. Mind is filled with questions with no answers. I would like to state that I am in no way looking for pity or attention of any kind, I'm simply venting. Sorry that I left it here on your post. Again, I'm sincerely sorry for your loss. I wish you the best. It's hard and honestly you never truly recover, you simply learn to live with it.
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Part of life get over it
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I'm sorry for your loss, can't imagine what that must've been like.
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Don't cry because its over smile because it happend:dr.suess [spoiler]expecting prince of bell air ended up laughing harder[/spoiler]
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You're scum for posting that oh and a attention whore.
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I hope you feel better, I know what it feels like. ( do you need a hug?)
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How did he die?
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Edited by Mavrick: 12/1/2014 8:51:36 PMIt is foolish and wrong to mourn the men who died. Rather we should thank God that such men lived. -George S. Patton Sorry for your loss.
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Edited by Railgun: 1/12/2015 10:36:33 PMHoly -blam!- I'm so sorry if this is true. [spoiler]If it isn't true, well -blam!- you[/spoiler]
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Don't feel ba for not being there. Te last time you saw him you said goodbye. He probly had a smile on his face. You are very fortunate to have quite literally said goodbye before he died. Look at this as a blessing. I am so sorry this happened and I hope you can stay positive ( obviously not a positive thing but push in man.)
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He's not dead, he's just missing in action.
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Not sure if srs, if u r srs then soz4u if not do this http://stream1.gifsoup.com/view/247584/family-guy-care-bear-suicide-o.gif
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I am sorry for your loss. I know how feel. My little brother and one of my uncles both passed away, and my little when he was one. I pay my respects. I hope you get through this
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Not sure if serious
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How far was he in the game?
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I'm sorry for ur loss