Just giving this a quick bump for my update. I'd gotten a few PM's asking how I'm doing.

Stay strong get well soon

Get better soon!!

Hope you get better soon!

Hey I wish you all the best !!

Best wishes buddy. Hope you get well soon.

Thanks again for all the support guys. I'm crossing my fingers that I'll be 100% sometime this summer.

Best of luck to you sir!

Stay strong buddy hope all goes well.

Bless you bro. Stay strong like you have been.

Good luck

I can speak on relative terms, not in being sick or anything but, i know what its like to pick up a controller and forget daily problems easily. Its a good distraction. And Destiny provides the best one. I was born with epilepsy and the episodes i had as a kid affected my speech. And growing up poor most of my life, i didnt have any video games until i was like 14, and that was limited by my dad whod hide the power cord due to failing grades. Anyway, i was always the easy target in schools. Some days were worse than others, and after almost 10 years of being beaten down for not being able to speak "like everyone else" i decided, i dont need to talk. I got into breakdance amd grafitti, and after i got into college i got into bboy and gaming. Especially gaming now since my work schedule conflicts with my crew's practice schedule. College loan remains unpaid, friends dying left and right due to drunk -blam!-ing drivers who just dont give a shit, and for the longest time being unemployed just because of how i spoke, could anyone blame me for picking up a controller and pretending to be someone else who doesnt stutter? So, not as emotional as yours, but in terms of relativeness, i definitrlely understand where youre coming from.

Good luck man best wishes from all us guardians out there

[quote]New years Eve 2014 Update: I'd completely forgotten about this thread, so thank you to the guys messaging and asking how I'm doing. The last couple months have been interesting but I'm getting better. There was a lot of trial and error finding out medication doses and whatnot, BUT they think the dosage we've worked out should be enough to kick the tumor's butt. At first I was on .25mg of cabergoline twice a week, now I'm up to .75mg BUT the blood markers are down to under 1/3 of what they were. Should have a new blood test in 2 weeks to find out for sure. The docs finally admitted they were out of their depth though, and recommended that I see a specialist. Kind of what happens when you live in a small(ish) town where the closest thing to an endo/neuro doc is an internist. Probably next week I'll be calling our insurance (thank god for insurance now lol) company and seeing if they will cover the trip to Seattle to see the specialist. I'll probably be there a week or so considering the'll want blood draws, etc. A lot of my symptoms are gone or nearly there. I can drive again without worrying about getting in a wreck from being dizzy or forgetting what I was doing. Short term memory is still fried but I'm thinking a lot more clearly at least. Honestly, I'm just amazed you guys even remembered about this thread. Thank you guys and if you are ever bored, feel free to shoot me a message on xbone. Same as my name here :) ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Edit: Moved from #Destiny to #Bungie for a better fit. First off, it isn't cancer thankfully. Downside is that I have a lifetime of medication that I can never go off of. This is where Bungie and the Destiny Beta comes in. Truthfully, I doubt out of all the forum posts and emails that they'd ever read this, but I'm telling my story anyhow. I had my final exam for disability due to my tumor on the 22nd. To say I was a mess before going into the psychological exams would be putting it lightly. I haven't slept more than 4 hours a night since I lost my job back in February from being unable to work. When I got out of my four hour appointment, I had an email. Not just any email, but one containing the beta download codes for Xbox. The moment I got home with my wife, Destiny was downloading, and we spent the entire beta test ignoring my problems for a few days. It was nice to feel normal, even for a few days. Nice to forget all the crap that is going on in my life and let it all fade away into having fun playing xbox with the wife again. Nice to remember what life was like 10 years ago playing Halo when we were dating and life was a lot simpler. It was nice to know that even though I'm going through hell right now, that there was still some kind of hope. I got a letter in the mail this past Saturday saying that (even with the tumor messing up most of my function) that I should be able to work in some capacity to the point my disability was denied. Truthfully, I have no idea if we will be homeless or not when the full version of Destiny comes out, but that isn't the point to all this. My point is simple really. Thank you Bungie for putting something out that even in an incomplete state, it could help me forget the daily migraines, medication injections, and general hell that my life has been for the last eight months. That is something truly impressive to experience. Thank you Bungie for continuing to put out great content, and even if I end up unable to play the full version of Destiny, I wish you the best on the launch. Your staff deserves a round of applause for the great game they have created. In regards to the comments, details for my condition are in a comment further down the page. Thank you all for the well wishing. Normally, I'd go comment by comment and say thank you, but it is looking like I'd have a ton of them to go through. Thanks guys, and with a little luck you'll get to shoot me in the face in Destiny sometime lol. Edit: So I've been messaged several times about donations and whatnot. For the record, getting money or help wasn't even the point of this post. Honestly, the community here at Bungie has surprised the hell out of me twice in one day. I never expected this much of a response, let alone all the offers of help or assistance I am getting. So thank you everyone. Personally, just the good thoughts from the forums alone are helping like crazy. I don't want this to turn into "Fallen003's fundraiser page" but thank you either way. Link will be provided on request. Thank you :) Edit: for those wondering about my condition, I'll be posting a (contact info deleted) copy of my disability denial on the gofundme page when I get home tonight. You don't have to donate, but I never even thought that I might look like a scammer either. Feel free to ask whatever about my condition btw. I don't mind.[/quote] Get well soon guardian