Throughout my life I've just skated by, nothing bothered me and everything just seemed like rain that would slide right off me. The problem with that is the fact that everything did slide right off me, every emotion, every care, every success and every failure; all just slid right by me. My "I don't know" was mistaken for "I don't care" my depression hid itself from me and others disguised as laziness. Soon enough it ate away at me, revealing itself to me alone and forced a fake smile to my face and a fake happiness in my voice. Through the years I managed to fool myself into thinking I truly was happy, and my smile was real. Unfortunately depression has a sick humor and enjoys slamming your soul to a pulp. At this point I'm just a shell, of a quiet kid who never was, never is, and never will be anything. This note cannot hold water to all the thoughts in my mind but simply a way for me to express some of it. This isn't a goodbye to the forums or a goodbye to my family. This is, in short, a goodbye to the world of which I never saw, never lived, never experienced. [spoiler]unfortunately I will not be in the position to do a backflip, sorry to disappoint even from my eternal sleep[/spoiler]