Hello flood. I have an unusual problem and need your help. In my life, I have a lot of experience of fapping in indiscreet places. You see, I live in a place with many people so nowhere is fap-safe. For me, the mess and cleanup afterwards were the hardest parts. The resulting mess was a VERY messy and almost impossible to hide. I would manage to catch most of everything, but that still leaves the problem of my jizz-covered hand and dick. It was nearly impossible to hide them and getting to the bathroom with no one seeing me was an incredibly difficult task. So after years of doing this, I gradually learned to....er..literally hold it in when I asplode. I have become so proficient at holding it in that at this point in my life, I don't actually jizz when I climax. Almost absolutely nothing comes out and holding it in has become so much of a reflex that it is difficult for me to actually jizz normally. I literally have to put effort into it in order to shoot. I have never heard of this happening to anyone else and I was wondering if it was hurting me in any way. Does anyone know if this is bad for me?